My mother has been much nicer to me since she’s heard about her friend being sent to psych ward. Her friend Gloria od’d on a bunch of pills that were not prescribed to her. She’s 80 years old and has been very unkind to her daughter. Gloria and my mother would have a b**** fest about their daughters (including me) not doing enough for them. Nobody wants to take Gloria into their house after she’s released including the daughter. The daughter has cancer and her own health problems. Now my mother has been contacting me almost everyday. I have no words, my mothers narcissism has created such heartache for me. I need to keep a distance for my own mental health.
I learned I had to protect myself by distancing and detaching. I agree you need to keep a distance for your own mental health. You decide how much contact you want/can tolerate with your mother and set the appropriate boundaries: such as answering only 2 phone calls a week, limiting phone calls to 15 minutes, ending the phone call is she gets verbally abusive or the conversation is generally a downer for you, and so on. Even going no contact if you need to.
At one point I stopped answering phone calls from my mother as they were consistently abusive. She had dementia by then and was really off the wall. I did listen to the voice mails she left to see if she had any real issues that I could address, but I couldn't handle the calls. The voice mails were bad enough.
Take the steps you need to take - take back control of your life. Your mother, as a narcissist , wants to be the center of your existence. By listening to her calls you are giving her the constant supply of attention she craves - her narcissistic supply. If you stop this she will find someone else to give her attention and you will be much better off.
I think it is wise to remember how they are so as to avoid getting caught up in the unhealthy behaviours again. My sis is similar but could be charming for a longer period of time, so it took me a longer time to realize that the charming times were simply setting me up for the criticism, put downs, manipulations.
Mother passed over 3 years ago and once I had settled the estate I went no contact with my sister. I was low contact with mother for years even though I was POA, and also with my sister. It is a great relief to finally be safe from these interactions.
Take care of you -do what is good for you. ((((((hugs)))))
Now, mom is 95 with advanced dementia & in such a horrible state it's hard to imagine what she was like with a forked tongue and spewing ugly words at me a mile a minute. She's reduced to a person I don't even recognize and it makes me sad, actually. It took THIS for me to feel sympathy for her which also saddens me. At almost 65 years old myself, this is what it's all boiled down to. It's literally been one heartache after another, and this heartache now is just another one I have to absorb, albeit different than the other heartaches of the past 60-odd years. Even now, when I DO have sympathy for her, she's too far gone to even speak to, so there's nothing left to 'fix' or to even say, really. All I can do now is visit with her a couple of times a week and let her know that I love her. Kiss her on the cheek. Bring her a few snacks which she doesn't even want anymore. Now it's too late.
Your mother calls you every day now, you say. What does she have to say? Is there any shred of hope that she is sorry for all the hateful stuff that's gone on? Any chance she wants to right the wrongs now? Only you can feel out the situation and go from there. Maybe it's too late for the two of you to repair this relationship, maybe not, I don't know.
If you feel there's no hope to repair the relationship at all, then keep your distance and protect yourself from the heartaches yet to come. It's really all you can do.
Wishing you the best of luck.
Regardless of her being 'nicer' the frequency of calls are unwanted as the OP does not want a closer relationship? Have I got that right?
Lizzy, what would you do with daily calls from someone else you had little interest in forming a closer friendship with?
Would you ignore some or all of those calls? Would you answer one or two a week?
What would be the right level of calls for YOU?
Do the calls bring you any joy? Or do you feel like a listening post?
Coz there is no rule in life stating you must be someone's listening post. Not even your Mother's.
I have a daughter that I am somewhat estranged from; I understand a bit of what you are feeling. That is, to be frank where I would be. I can do some communication, but I don't attempt to do more than I can, more than is good for me. I have my own human limitations; I honor them. I at times find myself wanting in many things, in forgiveness, in understanding. But at some point, after you have several times tried, you have to make decisions for yourself and OWN THEM. This is self protection.
Looking back on times when I felt she and I could indeed talk.... most of those times amounted to talking about other people. And not just talking about them, but talking about their juicy problems in full detail. I was so starved for my mom's attention, that I was unable to see that these "deep" conversations were just gossip about other people. I put a stop to that. No more talking about others unless it's truly information I need and/or it's a situation where my help was needed. You guessed it - legit discussions have been few and far between.
It broke my heart as a teen where my mom described our relationship as "superficial" and cried and told me she wanted to be closer to me. Ummm.... OK. Well the first step to being close to someone is establishing trust. Having everything I tell my mom used against me somehow is not a foundation of trust.
I'll never forget the day when my daughter (as a teen) asked me why she can't tell Grandma anything for fear of it being turned around on her. I think I stopped breathing for a moment to hear it from my daughter. It meant so much that someone else noticed it.
I seldom talk to my mom at this point. Mainly email. I live close to her home. My golden child sibling lives far away. I dread the day my mom will need help. To be honest, I don't think she is expecting much from me. I don't know anything about her health, medications, or anything like that. The relationships she DOES have are clearly situations where she controls the relationship. She can't control me, so she doesn't bother with me.
My mother's social worker told me that I needed to back away from being my mother's caregiver. She told me that if my mother's behavior caused people to not want to help her, that it was her own problem, not mine. That really flabbergasted me because I was raised to be responsible for everyone else.
It doesn't sound like your mother's narcissm is new behavior. It does seem like she can recognize that she didn't treat you well and can control herself when she wants to. That's probably the closest you will come to getting closure.
Deal with her in a way that feels safe for you. That may mean keeping your distance and working through third parties when she needs help. Don't let her guilt you into doing something that will make you miserable.
It truly sucks that some people only want us when they can use us. I'm sorry you are going through this.
your heartfelt message brought tears to my eyes. I’ve gone no contact with my sister, it’s too painful when my sister and mother gang up on me. Once my mother passes away and the estate is settled I won’t be dealing with this anymore. I seriously considered having a private funeral for my mother without my sister. She was awful when my father died, I deserve to grieve without being ridiculed.
My sister and I were both POA, healthcare proxy and my husband was executor. My sister has twisted so much and she convinced my mother we were after her money. She was living with us, the money needed to be discussed for end of life. I’m sure she’s changed everything according to my sisters instructions. I may just hire an attorney and she can deal with him. I’m tired of being manipulated and lied to.
Wow -- and to think it was your MOTHER'S SW who told you this! We see plenty of caregivers on this forum whose own therapists/counselors don't seem to tell them this. Often the elder's doctors couldn't care less what is being done to the family (or, often, the sole caregiver, often a daughter) by the elder caregiving.
My mother was riddled with anxieties and obsessions. When I mentioned this to her PCP and asked about some anti-anxiety meds, the doctor's answer was that she didn't like to prescribe those meds for her older patients. And that what my mother needed was for someone to check in on her every day to see what she needed. ?! Well, once she got to a facility (rehab after hospitalization then LTC), you can bet they started giving her those meds.
I never had to live with my mother, or vice versa. It was never going to happen. If that situation was looming, I was fully prepared to tell my brothers (all out of state, of course!) that MY doctor said it wouldn't be good for MY health. It was stressful enough being her support and chauffeur so that she could live "independently" in a condo 7 minutes from me.
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